Attached

I miss these two boys. A lot.

I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

I can't believe they will both be home SO soon! But I sure do miss them. And it seems in just the past few days I've been missing them more and more. I just miss them.

And Emily just left. And I miss her SO much already.

Do you ever just miss someone?

I miss people a lot. I kind of get really attached to people and it's really hard for me to let them go. So I end up missing people a lot. It's nice to know that I'll get to spend eternity not only with my family but also with all the friends that I make here. I'll get to see them again and play with them again! How wonderful!

Princess

I went to this tonight! And it was so fun. I loved it! It was a great time. :)

Nostalgic

Because of facebook I have been able to read and hear and see about my alma mater's band tour this past weekend. They went to California and I'm pretty sure competed in the same two competitions I competed in when we went there when I was junior.

As I looked at some of the pictures, read some of the statuses, and watched some of the videos, I realized how much I absolutely miss it. I really do. It's probably the only thing about high school that I miss. I miss practicing for 8 hours in the hot sun. I miss running Quail. I miss marching in blizzards. I miss DF yelling at us from the ladder. I miss the long bus rides. I miss the thrill of a "perfect" show. I miss memorizing my music. I miss doing stupid skits. I miss listening to Dr. Fullmer's wise words. I miss spending 40 hours in the band room making pep band folders. I miss being called Flut. I miss hearing "1st place Timpview High School". I miss making fun of ROTing. I miss ROTing. I miss call times and show times. I miss pep band. I miss band council. I miss the band room. I miss the music library. I miss the DM room. I miss eating lucky charm's in the DM room after tour. I miss DF's office at lunch time. I miss presidency romance. I miss playing in an awesome concert and then going to Wendy's after. I miss sitting on the front row and hearing DF's jokes. I miss giving him a hard time. I miss being a secretary with my favorite secretary. I even miss the curtain. But most of all I miss the amazing quantity and quality of friends I had in band. As cheesy as it sounds we were a family. And. I. Miss. It.

A couple of weeks ago, some girls in my ward and I were complaining about how much longer we have until we graduate. Another girl who is graduated said "Enjoy it. There are a lot of things I miss about being in school." I've really been thinking about what she said. I wished high school away. All through high school I couldn't wait to graduate and then my senior year came along and I was having the time of my life and I didn't want to graduate. I don't want to do the same thing with college. I've really been trying hard to really enjoy it. I was thinking about it the other day as I was walking across campus and I thought "I really am going to miss this campus!" And as think about more and more, I love learning and I love what I'm learning right now. I am so blessed. I get to study nursing at BYU!! I am so in love with my life right now!

I knew I would miss it. I never knew I would miss it this much though. I guess it just goes to show you that you have to love your life now. Live life to fullest. Enjoy what you have cause once it's gone you'll probably miss it.

The Good Stuff

"I know there are many that suffer heartbreak, loneliness, pain, and setback. These experiences are a necessary part of the human experience. However, please do not lose hope in the Savior and His love for you. It is constant. He promised that He would not leave us comfortless.

When we face challenges in our lives, we are comforted by the words of the Lord in the 58th section of the Doctrine and Covenants:

“Ye cannot behold with your natural eyes, for the present time, the design of your God concerning those things which shall come hereafter, and the glory which shall follow after much tribulation.

“For after much tribulation come the blessings. Wherefore the day cometh that ye shall be crowned with much glory; the hour is not yet, but is nigh at hand.”

Therefore, brothers and sisters, we must press on and eventually become more like the Lord in the process."

-Elder Joseph B. Wirthlin

"The Lord has not asked him to do that. The Lord has asked us, as home teachers, to love and watch over our assigned families. The Lord has not asked President Monson to organize and conduct our family home evening. He wants us, as fathers, to do this.

You may feel that there are others who are more capable or more experienced who could fulfill your callings and assignments better than you can, but the Lord gave you your responsibilities for a reason. There may be people and hearts only you can reach and touch. Perhaps no one else could do it in quite the same way.

Our Heavenly Father asks that we represent Him in the noble work of reaching out and blessing the lives of His children. He asks us to stand firm with the power of the priesthood in our hearts and souls and give the calling we have at this moment our best efforts.

As strong as you are, you cannot and you should not lift a piano by yourself. Likewise, none of us can or should move the Lord’s work alone. But if we all stand close together in the place the Lord has appointed and lift where we stand, nothing can keep this divine work from moving upward and forward."

-President Dieter F. Uchtdorf

I think I can

I'm going to be a good nurse. I'm going to be a good nurse. I'm going to be a good nurse. I've somehow gotten myself into this crazy mindset that if I get a B on a test that I'm going to be a B nurse! What is wrong with me?

I need to get out of this mindset as soon as possible!

Instead of counting sheep tonight I'm going to fall asleep saying to myself I'm going to be a good nurse. I'm going to be a good nurse. I'm going to be a good nurse.

All I Do Is Dream Of You

This guy has got a new album out!!

I

Love

Him

I wish I could marry him! And then he could sing to me all the time. And I could listen to his beautiful voice. And I could look at his attractive face all the time. And I could be famous too. And we would live happily ever after!!

(too bad he is 15 years older than me, not a member of the church, and not interested in a 20 year old Mormon girl who lives in Provo) A girl can dream, right??

Dilemma

I love my job. I love it. I love the people I work with. I love giving shots and drawing blood. I love calling in perscriptions. I love assisting the doctors. I even love checking people in. I love it!

But.....

My life is out of control right now! I'm taking 13 credits which actually isn't that bad. But all of my classes are hard classes. I work about 14-16 hours a week. And I go to class full time and I am the Relief Society President in my ward.

I am just starting to love my calling. At first it was overwhelming and crazy. And it's still crazy, but I'm growing to love it more and more everyday. I love the girls in my ward! And I want to share my testimony with them everyday and help them draw closer to the Savior. I want them to feel of His love and know that He knows them! I want them to realize, remember, and always know that they are daughters of a King!

I love school. It's so awesome. I love my classes. I love my professors. I love my class mates. I love it! I love learning how to look in someone's ear and how to palpate their lymph nodes. I love practicing and learning how to be a nurse. I love learning about the human body. And diseases. And nutrition. I love it.

But...it's kicking my butt right now.

I can't keep doing all three of this things. It's going to kill me. I'm so dead right now. And getting so sick. One of them is going to have to give. And it can't be school or my calling. But I LOVE my job. I don't want to quit. I wan to be able to do all three but I'm not sure if I can.