I Never Thought The Day Would Come

I can't believe I'm saying this. But I think I might be a BYU basketball fan. I know, I know. Crazy! Right?

But, honestly, I've never really been a Utah basketball fan. I mean don't get me wrong my football loyalities have not changed at all. I mean not at all! I will always and forever be a Utah football fan! Always.

But I just love going to the BYU basketball games! I love them. And I especially love one player in particular. I have the biggest crush on him. I hope to marry him someday. :) I go to the basketball games and end up watching him most of the time. (I'm not sure why I am admitting this on cyber space) But I just love that Jimmer boy!

Maybe someday I will get to meet him or even just sit by him again. This one time I got to sit to by him in my class and this other time he smiled at me-those two days were two of the best days of my life. They come in #2 and #3, right after the day I got into the nursing program.

Okay, okay all jokes aside. I have a PROBLEM!!

BYU and Utah are playing on Saturday. I want to go to this game so bad. BUT...I don't know who to cheer for. I don't know if I can bring myself to cheer against Utah. But really I would like to see BYU win. I mean come on. They are ranked #10 in the nation! And I would just love to see Jimmer happy. :) But it's Utah...

WHAT DO I DO??

p.s. I really do want your advice. :)

(oh and I don't even want to think about what Chris would say to me if he knew this was happening.) (Or my mommy, although she reads this and she knows my love already)

The Hard Stuff

Just the other night at a hometown football game
My wife and I ran into my old high school flame
And as I introduced them the past came back to me
And I couldn't help but think of the way things used to be

She was the one that I'd wanted for all times
And each night I'd spend prayin' that God would make her mine
And if he'd only grant me this wish I wished back then
I'd never ask for anything again

Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers
Remember when you're talkin' to the man upstairs
That just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he don't care
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers

She wasn't quite the angel that I remembered in my dreams
And I could tell that time had changed me
Inn her eyes too it seemed
We tried to talk about the old days
There wasn't much we could recall
I guess the Lord knows what he's doin' after all

And as she walked away and I looked at my wife
And then and there I thankedd the good Lord
For the gifts in my life

Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers
Remember when you're talkin' to the man upstairs
That just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he don't care
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers

Some of God's greatest gifts are all too often unanswered...
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers

BIG decisions are hard for me. Knowing the Lord's will for me is hard for me. I want to do what He wants of me so badly.

Good Intentions

I was going to go running today

BUT

I took a 2 1/2 hour nap instead

I guess I'm not my mother's daughter (see previous post)

Marathon Runner

My mama is running this! Right now. She's over half way.

She's so awesome.

You wish your mom was as cool as mine.

Satisfied

One of the most satisfying things in the world for me happens when I'm at work.

Dr.: "Courtney, I need a blood draw for Bob."

Courtney: "Okay, I'm on it!"

In my head: "Heavenly Father please help me to get this blood on the first try"

(walk in the room)

Courtney: "Hi Bob! I'm Courtney. And I'm going to be drawing your blood today. Have you ever had your blood drawn before?"

Bob: "Oh yes! Many times."

Courtney: "Wonderful! Do you have an arm you prefer?"

Bob: "Nope."

Courtney: "Okay. Let me take a look here."

In my head: "Well this one looks good. Let's try it."

(I get everything ready)

In my head: "Okay. Here we go. I'm confident in myself! I can do this."

(stick the needle in. put the tube in.)

Here comes the satisfying part.....

The BLOOD comes rushing out into the tube! Rich, dark, lovely blood! I love it. It is so darn satisfying.

Who I Am Is Who I Want To Be

I love this woman!

Sometimes I wish I could sing like her and look like her and dress like her!

She's awesome.

I love her music and her show.

And I'm not ashamed!

I so wish I was going to this!

(too bad I don't have all the money in the world-or at least enough for two tickets and a hotel)

My Kind of Paradise

I went home yesterday in between the CES Fireside and ward prayer. I only had an hour. But can I tell you how precious that hour was?

It was so precious!

My mom was the only one home. Well except for Koda.

But it was so wonderful to just spend that hour with my mom!

I love her!

And it was such a nice break. I even got a bagel.

I was sad when I had to go back to the real world.

I love my little paradise. And it's only 5 minutes away. (or less depending on how I hit the lights)

Thanks mom! I needed and loved that hour more than you know! And I love you and appreciate all that you do for ME (more than you know)!

My Four "P's"

I've been thinking about how I wanted to make a New Year's resolution. But I didn't want it to be something trivial or something that I would stick to for a week. I wanted it to be something real and something that I could really obtain. And today in church I found out what my one and only New Year's resolution will be. Here it is. Are you ready??

Every day when I wake up I will say this to myself:

"Today I will be positive, patient, prayerful, and productive!"

That is it. That is my New Year's resolution. Just to say that sentence.

I'm excited for what it is going to do in my life!

Editor's Note:

I have to admit I adapted this from a talk that was given in my ward by a wonderful girl!! (So it's not entirely of my own making)

2010

10 years ago, when the 21st century started, I was 10.

I can't seem to get over that fact. I don't really feel like 2000 was that long ago. But maybe it was. It was a whole decade. I certainly have changed a lot since I was 10. (Thank goodness!)

But as I think about 10 years ago I start to think about 10 years from now.....

2020. I'll be 30! Will I be married? Will I have kids? Will I still live in Utah? Will I be working? Will I look back to 2010 and think that doesn't seem like a long time ago? Will I think "wow I've changed a lot!"? Will I look back at 2010 as one of my best years?

I hope so.

Not only does this new year bring, well, a new year, but it also brings a new decade.

What will you do this year and in this decade to make it the best so far?

I've tried to answer that question for myself, because I do want this year to be the best so far. I want to grow like I've never grown before. I want to do amazing things. And meet amazing people.

I think about just this past year and how much my life has changed in the past year! I think in the past year my life has changed more than any other year. And I'm so grateful for that.

Something in me is telling me that this year is going to be big.

I'm a little scared. But mostly excited!