On My Mind Today

1. Music is speaking to my soul these days! I just love it. I can't get enough of it. All types. Country, Rock, Alternative, Rap, Hip-Hop, R&B, Jazz, Soft Rock, Easy Listening. You name it. It's all speaking to me.

2. My emotions are so close to the surface right now. I don't know what it is. (It's not even my time of the month) I'm finding myself feeling all sorts of things. Happy, Sad, Excited, Scared, Confused, Frustrated, Angry. I'm just a roller coaster. What is my deal?

3. Life is so unpredictable. We're having a love-hate relationship right now. You might say but that's what makes life fun? But you know what I wouldn't mind some boring every know and then.

4. In less than 2 months I will move out of a place I have lived for 2 years. It feels like I've been there for an eternity. It has taken some time, but I'm finally ready! And I'm excited! I've found in the past 2 months that the more I get to know a lot of the boys in my ward the less I like them. I know, sad right? But it's the truth.

5. In less than 2 months guess who gets home? Christopher! I miss him terribly today. Oh. And I never mentioned that Richard is home. (I don't know if he reads this) But I'm glad he's home. He's not weird. I thought he would be weird for sure.

6. My sister in law Laura got accepted into the UVU nursing program yesterday! I'm so happy for her. It reminds me of when I got in! I was on top of the world. It felt so good! Congrats Laura!!

7. I'm trying to be patient. It's hard.

8. Like I said yesterday I'm ready for school to start.

9. I'm always wishing for the future to come faster. I need to stop that. See #7.

10. Today I will be happy.

What's on your mind today?

Weird.

I'm ready for school to start again.

I'm so excited for clinical next semester.

I miss nursing.

I miss learning.

Is that weird?

The Exhibit

Remember this post?

Well the time has come for 30 Strangers Exhibit 2010 style!

It's gonna be sweet.

And I'll be one of the featured strangers, along with my mother and grandmother.

You should all come!

It will be a party!

Friday July 2nd

6-9 pm

26 West Center Street

Provo

More info here.

The Building

I didn't write this. I don't know who did. But I found it today. It got me thinking. I hope it does the same for you.

The Building

I passed one day through a lonely town

and saw mean tearing a building down.

With a ho-heave-ho and husky yell

they swung a beam and a side wall fell.

I asked the foreman, "Are these men skilled?"

"Oh, no!" He chuckled, "No, indeed.

The common laborer is all I need."

"Why I can destroy in a day or two

what builders have taken weeks to do."

I thought to myself as I went on my way,

which of these roles have I tried to play.

Am I a builder who works with care,

strengthening lives by room and square,

Shaping my peers to a well made plan,

helping them do the best they can,

Or am I a wrecker who walks around

content with the labor of tearing down?

Good Things Will Come

I wish the future me could talk to the present me.

Inspiration found here.

All

I'm in.

I'm ALL in.

The end.

I hope you all had a great weekend and an even better Monday.

Relax

Today's Horoscope:

What a perfect day to go to a spa, get a massage, or enjoy a sauna, Courtney. You have accumulated a lot of tension and stress lately, and you may have had a hard time trying to calm yourself down. You need some peace and quiet. Don't even pick up a newspaper - try not to even think! Just tune out and take care of yourself.

I wish I could do this today!

I'm In

This song is speaking to my heart today!

I'm In:

Love doesn't come with a contract

You give me this, I give you that

It's scary business

Your heart and soul is on the line

Baby, why else would I be standin' round here

so tongue tied?

If I knew what I was doing,

I'd be doing it right now

And I would be the best darn poet;

Silver words out of my mouth

My words might not be magic,

But they cut straight to the truth.

So if you need a lover and a friend,

Baby, I'm in. I'm in

Baby, come on in, the water's fine

I'll be right here, you take your time

Just let me hold you.

And we'll both take that leap of faith.

It's like I told you, there's no guarantees

when you feel this way.

If I knew what I was doing,

I'd be doing it right now.

And I would be the best darn poet;

Silver words out of my mouth.

My words might not be magic,

But they cut straight to the truth.

So if you need a lover and a friend,

Baby, I'm in. I'm in.

Baby, I'm in. I'm in.

Baby, come here next to me.

I'll show you how good it can be.

I'll breath each breath you breath;

I can pour out everything I am,

Everything I am.

If I knew what I was doing,

I'd be doing it right now.

And I would be the best darn poet;

Silver words out of my mouth.

My words might not be magic,

But they cut straight to the truth.

So if you need a lover and a friend,

Baby, I'm in. I'm in.

Baby, I'm in. I'm in.

You can hear the song here!

I hope you all have a wonderful day!!

Ready, Set, Go!

Do you ever just feel ready?

I feel so ready.

Ready for life, for everything, for change.

Just ready!

I'm ready!

I've got my cape in hand. I've got my running shoes on. And my umbrella for the rain.

I'm ready now!

Bring. It. On.

As Kelly would say, "I'm ready now, come get me!"

Numb

This is my horoscope for today:

Things should be going quite well for you, Courtney. Stay on track and you will have a clear runway to take off from. If, however, you deviate from where you need to be, you might receive a harsh reminder from something or someone who kicks you in the pants. There are powerful forces at work, and it will be to your benefit to work with them instead of against them. Maintain your focus on the truth and those aspects of life that are in alignment with your inner soul.

I especially like the line that says "you might receive a harsh reminder from something or someone who kicks you in the pants."

Go read your horoscope for the day here! I hope it can brighten your day.

On another note. I went to the dentist today. I'm not very fond of the dentist. One of my most disliked feelings in the world is having my mouth numb! I just hate it. And I also hate the way your mouth tastes when they are drilling. Yuck!

But. I got laughing gas. It seems to have the opposite effect on me though. I don't laugh. I get really, really tired. It just relaxes me so much. All my limbs feel SO heavy. It's weird. But I love it!

Get Away

Life can take a funny turn of events!

Sometimes I think I get things figured out-like about a month ago-and then I realize that I have nothing figured out-like now.

Everyone in my ward has been having dating discussions like mad. I'm sick of shallow and immature guys!

I think I'm finally ready to move out of my ward.

My room is messy. And my bank account is empty. I have no clean underwear.

I have so many dreams. And I feel like they are so far out of reach right now.

I need a vacation. I need sometime away from Provo.

p.s. I usually shy away from posts like this. But I have nothing else to say. And it's my blog! But don't worry life is still so good! :)